Thinking..

What a day. I just sit here pretending like I have something to do. I have a lot of time to think today. about life, about the future, about the people around me, about the people I will meet, about my family, about my favorite things, about what I really want. But the last thing I want to do right now is think. I don't like sitting and thinking. I like doing or not doing. Ideas just come to me, they aren't a product of diligent concentration, but rather random spurts of genius from an unknown source. I keep myself busy so I don't have time to think, because its when I think that I usually mess things up. So for now I will continue sitting in my cubicle with nothing to do, avoiding my own surely destructive thoughts.